KV's Rest Journey

为家慰诵经

2010-02-05T20:58:00.001+08:00

讣告

2010-02-04T10:45:00.002+08:00

出殡

2010-02-04T08:46:00.002+08:00

出殡日子：5 Feb 2010
时间　　　：11 早上
地点 : Tawau Hospital

骨灰将撒入大海.....

Happy Memories

2010-02-03T12:57:00.014+08:00

Rest in Peace

2010-02-01T19:14:00.004+08:00

Ka Vui just left us and he will have another new life in heaven. May you find peace and love there... bless you!!

Admitted to hospital

2010-02-01T15:14:00.000+08:00

Ka Vui has admitted to hospital. Please pray for him.

2010-01-28T15:20:00.000+08:00

我的身体还很虚弱。我需要一段很长的时间来康复。半年,一年...还是...我不清楚。如果我没有接你的电话或回复你们的短讯,which mean that I am weak and can't even pick up your call. Sometimes I will remain silent as I am suffering during this period. It's the feeling which I can't describe to you. I even can't sit and stand in long hours and will be easily get tired.

Rest at home

2010-01-26T16:11:00.000+08:00

Just discharged from Tawau hospital and rest at home now. Please bear in mind, if there is no news from me, it means that I have a good news!!! Thanks guys.. wish you all be happy and healthy... always.

谢谢你们

2010-01-18T10:57:00.004+08:00

踏上MAS早航班，11.15am会抵达斗湖。真的很感谢这几天来探望我的朋友，没有你们的支持，我会很辛苦的熬过去。Really.... it's a million thanks from my bottom heart... 我相信，我可以做到!!

Back to Tawau

2010-01-16T18:36:00.002+08:00

Doctor advised me to take a rest in Tawau... So I will be back to Tawau on Monday morning...

在康复中

2010-01-08T20:03:00.000+08:00

我生病了... 在康复中..... 不需担心...

初期的任务完成!

2009-04-12T22:06:00.002+08:00

第一任务终于过了一个段落了。。。YEAH~! Yeah~! 哈哈~~! 真想奔奔跳跳起来。。。但可惜身体还没恢复状态。。得到骷髓报告和医生宣佈我可以踏入了康复期！！..嘿嘿..还以为有好日子过了, 那懂来了一个大感冒。。。唉~~~!! 真难受。。。幸运的不是在化疗期, 不然的话又要被关进扣留所了。。嘻嘻。。。看来是身体要给我一个“下马威”吧！它仿佛要告诉我现在才是它作主，以后要听从它的。

康复期可说是一个不简单和非常复杂的任务。。在这几年要好好努力，不要 ”行差踏错”和期望别“复发”（Relapse）出现就好了。。好感激，上天再次让我有机会在精彩的人生好好走下去。。。我会好好去实现我没完成的梦想！虽然我不敢说自己经过了大病会改变很多想法，但肯定是每个人给予的支持和肯定让我很勇敢与好轻易过了这个难关。谢谢你们！

我没那么快踏入社会因为还要好好休息和部署一下, 很多人会建议我去找些没那么辛苦和轻松的工作但这世上那有不用努力的工作岗位，，：P 放心吧！我会量力而为的, 因为身体才是我的主人，我会以它为本。现在除了休养身体以外也为自己踏入社会做些准备, 当然我还回老家向家人朋友报平安！

以后的日子，我这小瓜会好好做人的希望不会让你们担心和期望。。谢谢你们在这一年头一直都不放弃的关心和包容我。。我这KV’s Rest Journey 部落格会继续下去，但可能不会有太多事件交代哦。。。因为”no news is good news”。。。。对吗？哈哈.。。。真的谢谢，谢谢，再谢谢！！

任务完成

2009-02-23T19:58:00.001+08:00

任务完成??.... 还是才走了一小步???...
YEAH!!! 经过了361天 (2008年2月26日 à 2009年2月20日)抗病期间，无数进出医院次数，无数针刺次数，无数疗程反应次数，无数心情起伏不定次数。。。等等。。等等。。。该要过一段落吧，该完成一小任务吧，该可以慢慢可以看见一点点的光芒了。。。。。。是的！！我的医疗疗程可说完成之前定下的计划！！
我的心情也很像大家一样该很兴奋同时也有很多疑问在脑海里, 让我慢慢一步步和大家分享吧。。疗程过程到现在都很庆幸的病情一直都在控制当中，虽然我的姐姐妹妹们的骷髓没有一个适合我加上如果找亲戚如表兄弟的成功率只有1 – 2%吧了,根据医生寻找外人如新加坡或台湾的慈济骷髓银行会比较容易和适合。。当然骷髓移植是对我的病断根的最好的方式但如果没兄弟姐妹适合骷髓，要用别人的风险会高好几倍加上我暂时的状况还是言之过早(移植骷髓加上一切检验费用也非同小可)但也不能轻心因为一担复发会比较麻烦因为我是属于急性白血病。。一切都是拭目以待和按部就班吧！放心.。放心.。。。
现在我还是以往一样要好好休息一阵子必尽刚刚才完成化疗, 可能有些朋友（反应）会来和我“SAY HELLO“的，嘿嘿嘿。。。。要过一段日子 – 大概一个月左右吧，要做一个称为HIGH RESOLUTION(HR)血型检验是用来预备寻找骷髓的, 和还要抽骷髓来检验来决定我下一步的去向。。根据医生，我的情况还不错该60–70%该好吧《但也不一定哦：P》，如一切都顺利的话，我该可以在不久的将来 - 6月或半年后该能正常工作与生活。。。。
放心吧！我一定会慢慢在这部落格一一告知大家的。。。允许我再次谢谢大家的关心,爱心,关怀,包容，。。。你们对我这小瓜真好。。。我今年的春节压岁钱是有史以来最浓厚的。。真不好意思，谢谢大家的心意和一切的支持！还记得一年前所说的“信心”！！你们给了我很多很多。。。我不会轻易让自己再回头黑暗面的.。。。感激！感激！：P。

2009 - 抉择

2009-02-04T14:31:00.002+08:00

人说一日之计在于晨, 一年之计在于春。。。但这春节对我来说我已可以庆祝休息一周年纪念了。。。能给大家的好消息就是我还剩下两次疗程就能完成任务了(如果一切顺利的话)。漫长的一年说快也不是很快，说慢但也转眼都已一年了。。。经过10次脑部电疗与无数次化疗可是我人生的一个非常大好的经验，之前有提到做了电疗会要一些记忆可能会失去。。但觉得好像没什么是我不记得的，有时身边的人跟我提起一些事物或是一些很久没联络的朋友名字在我脑海里真的没什么印象，不知是真的失去某些记忆还是我太久没动过所以可能自己忘了。。可能是上天要忘了一些过去,面对现在吧 :P。。
每一年春节每个人心中都会有些计划在心理吧！我也不例外但这次我给了自己2009年一个主题就是“抉择“。。因为如果一切顺利完成我的疗程和身体允许时就是有一大堆的抉择要我去决定了。。虽然很多时候，我的选择可能不能得到每个人的认同，我只好说谢谢各位的包容与爱心因为每个人意见都是包含关心和担心这个小瓜。。但大家的关心和意见我都会一一记得和放在心里的。。。。放心吧！有句话我最近很喜欢挂在嘴边就是”虽然我是病人，但我并不傻的”。。哈哈.。。。:P
有时侯我看回我之前没病和75KG 的照片里面的我看起来真的有些老老的样子，我还会不认得相片里的人原来是自己。。真是开玩笑！！很多人都对说现在的我虽然只有60KG左右但是看起来很好看尤其是我光头的样子不知是为了我能接受没有头发还是什么，但我自己觉得原来瘦瘦与光头的我也看起来年轻许多。。。可能我该早早改变这样的形象吧！哈！ :D。
允许我在没踏入牛年之前再一次让我说声感激大家的支持与关怀。。因为很多人还很留意我这BLOG和我的状况虽然很多留言的可能是我身边的朋友也有些我都不认识的人或是有些只来看看没留言的都有。。您们是我KV的贵人.。谢谢您们！虽然2009年经济衰退，但我觉得每一位的您都能度过这难关。。。。祝愿大家牛年里：力壮如牛, 身体健康，事事顺利.。。恭喜！恭喜！。。。

P/S： 2月4日（年十一）是我牛年的疗程咯。。。:P。。。

2009年1月25日（农历年三十）5.50AM。。。。

2008年

2009-01-01T08:08:00.001+08:00

2008年2月26日，除了出世那次可说是我人生第一次进院。。觉得好笑也好奇因为之前都忙着跑医院探病，万万想不到自己也有机会尝试睡在医院的感觉。想起农历新年的第一天就有人对我说为什么你”面青口唇白”，我还笑笑答睡不好吧。。。。结果新年过了但还是很多人都爱对我说为什么你”面青口唇白”加上脖子也有疼痛只好找了好几个医生看诊疗但还是没进展直到见了一位中医生说我可能贫血,当时我还跟他说我才做了全身检查没到一个月,报告还很好啊, 由于痛好几天只好乖乖去验血。拿了报告见了医生，他一句话都没说就叫我到医院检查。我还傻傻当没事回到家还看了一部”Harry Potter“，还好我的室友逼我去看看。到了医院，医生看了血液报告就对说我怀疑你患了急性血癌。当时我只是答”OH“，我还不知多严重性只是觉得这所医院好舒服哦，好象酒店。第二天抽了骨髓证实了真的得了血癌，还需要尽快治疗，那是我才开始紧张该怎么跟父母说呢,尤其是我那紧张100的老妈。当消息传出去，纷纷很多关心我的朋友，同事，亲戚和同学都很紧张的来看望我给我鼓励。最好笑是当时我还是以傻傻的样子和大家开玩笑，当时的我真的不觉得是什么大问题，可能是之前见多不怪吧。

一旦开始化疗，电疗，手上和背部被针插了无数次，疗程反应一直都不放过我的时候。我才开始”醒悟“了, 做病人不简单, 我也不是一个很坚强的人, 原来大家的关心和鼓励真的很有用。。我的信心和坚强意志也慢慢被岁月吞没了, 我曾经有段时间很消沉有时还会很想很想大哭一场。。我很佩服那些很坚强不屈的抗癌英雄, 他们可以为了他们爱的人或事物很努力地创造另一个天地。。消沉的我,开始有埋怨了为什么上天要我受苦不让我一次过。。还很羡慕我一位很好的大哥刚刚离开，还想为什么不带我一起走。。。还好, 有人对我说我可能患了忧郁症,叫我快快把心带回来别再这样下去。可能就是那一句话 “为什么不带我一起走” 搞到转播到很多人的耳里,开始又很多人纷纷来访我,给予很多很多关心。。可能我是个爱面子的人, 那里可以在人前显出我的软弱一面.。哈哈.。。。很快得我又慢慢地回到一个信心的病人。。。

抗癌了10个月零3天，我什么都干过只是让我很理解什么是病人的心情。。不知我还没到达一些阶段性还是什么所以不象有些抗癌的人会有很大很大改变或整个人性情都会变。。我还是那样爱说废话也爱说话乱七八糟的, 可能是江山易改本性难移吧。但是如果我不是这样的话我也会觉得自己有问题, 哈!!。。。。但我最大的收获就是你们每一位不离不弃地支持我, 没想到我虽然活了30年都没干过什么好事但还有很多人爱护和关心。。你们让我知道什么生存价值。。知道存在价值。。。。你们和我家人的包容和体谅给予我很大推动力。。除了感激我也不也多说, 因为大家也听厌了：P。。。

2008年该完了, 我也已经穿过一块里面一片黑暗，一段又一段走不完的旅程，从来没有想过回头，只想一直一直走下去。。就算看不清的路，看不清的梦，就算走到尽头，只要有你们在。。。。路一直会都在.。。。

祝福身体健康，新的2009年快乐。。。。。。。。。

31/12/2008。11：59pm...

把身體交給醫生，把生命交給上帝，把心情交給自己

2008-11-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

嘿嘿... 一个月没更新情况了, 让大家担忧了。
新环境里, 医疗和生活还过得还蛮不错.... 化疗程还终算顺利当中。
只要能继续按照疗程就是很好很好的现象，所以就是很好很好咯。（如果一切顺利程度,明年农历其间我应该可以完成疗程任务吧！）
哇！很快！我的抗病路途已有9个月了。好了不起了！很幸运因为我从来没有被你们遺弃过。。最重要是家人, 亲友还有大家对我这个”瓜”的包容与宽厚关怀….还是那句感激,感谢与感恩..。
这些日子学习很多, 也感受很多但总算还是过得非常好.。。因为我可以还能可以慢慢享受另一种生活方式，放心吧，我也没有“吊儿郎荡”度日，只是还是按照我的”皇帝龙体的情况”来按部就班。。哈！
今天又进院疗程咯。。快乐时光来咯。。。。
从把自己变秃头….慢慢想留存成庞克发型（Trojan头）..又慢慢有Baby发质头…但现在它们好像又要向我说BYE BYE了, 感觉要脱落了….真是变幻无常.哈哈…..迟些我还是把自己变成光光头吧…….心情好就好!J…

13 November 2008, Thursday.

我回来了……

2008-10-06T22:45:00.004+08:00

换了环境, 做了疗程也复了诊, 看起来一切好象都比想象中的好。身体状态还不错, 心情也好很多… 可能什么都开始要靠自己吧！前阵子给人照顾得太多太久, 所以人渐渐变得很懒散，什么都不想动... 所以就开始想太多吧... 希望那种不好的感觉别再回来那就谢天谢地了...
虽然这次决定并不能得到所有人的认同，但是目标还是一样要把疗程完成... 那我就不会辜负大家的期望和关怀。我不敢说这次一定会很好很好, 因为医学上永远没有人可以给保证！
放心,我还是会很努力; 积极的走下去....
很快的过几天我又要进医院做三天的疗程.... 这次和上次是一样的。所以该是没问题吧！

New environment

2008-09-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

I had change a new environment and will be admitting to hospital today for chemo treatment. Wish everything will be alright....

累了！！

2008-08-25T23:07:00.002+08:00

我开始累了！！开始放纵自己！！！还有9个Phase的疗程...我可以坚持下去吗？？

Undergo an operation next Monday

2008-08-21T18:07:00.005+08:00

I will be admitted to hospital tomorrow and undergo an operation next Monday. 医生会在我的胸口上插一支管来方便下药，再也不用 “cucuk” from my hands…

我开始累了......

五个月了.......

2008-07-28T22:54:00.000+08:00

五个月了……..我已做完第三个疗程了, 好久没更新我的情况；让大家担心了。在这第三疗程比较长一些也是加上了大家关注头部电疗（一共10次），根据医生，这次的疗程和电疗是属于比较轻微所以应该没什么大问题的, 尤其是电疗（它只是纯粹为了避免我的白血病菌侵犯脑部）但我过得很辛苦很难过。。。。头很痛，呕吐到好几天都吃或喝到东西连吞下口水也会吐.。。在此期间真的很难受，我不知道我能做些什么只知道我不能停下来，一定要撑下去因为自己很明白我是没权力放弃也无路可退。
有些朋友都会问做了电疗，“还记得我吗？”我可以说一句话就是我想我没失去任何记忆，放心我还记得大家。。反而让我想了更多，连不该想的也慢慢侵占了我的脑海里.,,心情很差。想起我刚得知患上急性血癌时, 很多人（家人，亲戚，朋友，老师, 同事甚至有些不认识我的朋友。。）都为我担心，给予支持和祝福，为我祈祷，还有一些浪费金钱时间精神千里来探望我. 。。。日子久了，越来越多亲戚朋友知道我的情况后都纷纷也给支持, 真是”人间有爱”！！！不同是想不到既然发生在我身上。开始时, 很多人担心我不能接受,会胡思乱想但在当时的我不觉得是什么因为这些病又不只是我一个人患上,加上也有很多人都能走出来所以并不觉得有什么好恐怖的，我还一直强调自己很有信心能好起来。。。当中还有很多人都说我不像病人，很勇敢。。也很多人应该也觉得我应该是”死顶”的吧。。。。果然不出所料时间真的能抹杀一个病人的心情, 我想该说声抱歉因为我并没有大家想象中的那么坚强,,,情绪慢慢陷入困境…心情变得非常沉重…要一匹 ”野马”突然间只能在等吃等睡生活, 长期5个月下去什么承受能力已经消磨七七八八了，顶不住了！。。唉.。。。
今天见了医生，她说这次骨髓报告还是在控制当中所以化疗还是对我说是有帮助的。但是另一个不好的报告也出来了，我所有姐姐妹妹的骨髓没有一个适合我也就是说如果我需要换和找到骨髓的话，风险会变得比较高。但也不用着急因为我的情况暂时还不需要换，医生也答应会在适当时候联络新加玻和台湾寻找，现在她也不鼓励去寻找因为一切还是言之过早而且也不一定要换加上这笔费用也不少.。。一切就看天咯。。。换句话说我的10个疗程要慢慢享受了.。。明天要进院了接受第四个疗程了，大概要5天左右吧。。。快乐的日子又来临了.。。。唉, 别管啦，反正这些“快乐”体验我还是要度过，就等着瞧吧！

* 注：请别担心，虽然心情不能很舒畅但已经在抢救当中。。。所以也别太看小KV能力，深信他会好回来的.

28 July 2008
10.41PM.

一切都顺利

2008-06-03T21:02:00.002+08:00

三个月了。。谢谢你们一直陪伴我一起度过。。。其实我比谁都来得幸运因为有你们。。一切都看起来还蛮顺利的。。。身体都很好，所以人开始也很闷了，要作怪了。。有时很想很想回到社工作，但想想一下那有那么容易啊。。。。嘿嘿。。。还是乖乖修养吧。。

出院都已经有半个月了，很多朋友都会问为什么BLOG没有UPDATE 的。原因是都没有什么好讲因为在期间我只在家吃和睡加闷吧了。但我身体状态已经可说好像普通人一样没分别。。所以NOTHING = VERY GOOD咯。。。 :)

今天看了医生，我的骨髓和血球报告都很好。。。所以CHEMO对我的病有帮助。。另句话说要继续疗程。。。讲到疗程也有很多人问我到底还有多少次，我只可以答的就是如果顺利的话；在整个疗程大概有十三次 – 大概用一年时间（不包括进院观察）。而我已做了两次疗程。。明天是我第三次，以下是我这次的疗程：
a) 4 June 08 - 7 June 08 (4 days) - 休息(3 days)
b) 11 June 08 - 14 June 08 (4 days) - 休息(3 days)
c) 18 June 08 - 21 June 08 (4 days) - 休息(3 days)
d) 25 June 08 - 28 June 08 (4 days)

在18June08开始我就要做Radiation头脑部分为期两个星期，也就是会有影响记忆的疗程哦（lost some memory side effect）
希望一切都顺利吧！由于这次疗程很多，所以这次不再update我进院出院了。。

我出院了！！！

2008-05-15T09:48:00.000+08:00

话不多说，我出院了!!!!
I will be resting at home for 2 weeks.... horray...

我发烧了!!!!

2008-05-07T17:02:00.005+08:00

医生一开始就已经事先告诉我，第二次的的疗程会有所跳动, 还说这次的药会比之前来得重... 这应该是会先苦后甜吧!!! 我还以为第二次的疗程会很顺利，怎知道好戏在后头... 医生预算我的血读数在疗程的几天后一定会下降而且还会有发烧的状况。所以疗程完了就先让我出院。只要我的NEU少过0.5就要立刻进院。

上个星期到医院验血，我的报告都很理想，有3.56 的读数，医生还开玩笑说着：我们还没有进药噢!!! 那刻，我的心里还挺高兴的。那里知道上个星期五验血过后，我的血level既然降到0.004。

医生还立刻安排了一间personal ward 给我，因为我的血降到非常的底，但是偏偏就没有多余的私人房。昨天(5 May), 我的血球降到0, 直到中午，我发烧了，烧到39.2c。护士说，如果是小孩，一定会烧到脑了。

原来这种发烧真的不好受。它会突然全身发抖... 完全控制不到... 但是我的头脑还是清醒的。幸好二姐一直在旁照顾我。我全身发抖了十五分钟后，就会呕吐一轮。哇，超那命啊!!!

头发又开始脱落了，就如二姐说，一切都会过去的。至少我知道，这种发烧果然很刺激，所以我只好乖乖的在医院休养吧!!!!

我又进院了

2008-05-02T23:25:00.002+08:00

我又进院观察咯！！！
我果然逃不过医生的神算，我的blood level will be dropped for this week, 所以，没办法了，我还是得进院去修行 --- 好让我的blood level 恢复正常水平才可出山！！！！！

我可以出院了！！

2008-04-27T02:43:00.003+08:00

我可以出院咯!!! Anyway...I may need to admit to hospital next week... It's all need to depend to doctor's decision. 这次还蛮顺利的....
但是还是需要在家多多休息!!! 在医院里有收获噢，警察刚好到医院做拜访，所以每人有一份礼蓝。

2nd Phase of Chemoterapy Treatment

2008-04-21T21:13:00.004+08:00

Yahoo!!! Doctor mentioned that my blood level became normal. Therefore, I have admitted to hospital for my 2nd phase of chemotherapy - for 1 - 2 weeks.

I will be starting my journey again!!!!
This time of chemoteraphy treatment will be more hebat.. and I vomited a lot!!!

Good news to share

2008-04-17T19:09:00.007+08:00

I have a good news to share with you... My chemotherapy treatment is in a good progress… I will be going for a blood test next week to decide when I need to undergo the second phase of the cycle 1 treatment (induction). Hahahaha.. I got another bonus week to rest at home, rather stay in hospital... Emm.. and I am getting usual with this treatment liao..

Besides that, my friends from West Malaysia came to visit me last Monday. Thanks for everyone's support...

先下手为强！！

2008-04-14T20:56:00.005+08:00

哈哈..... I am READY!!! 等你脱，不如把你剪去!!!
It's my new botak look!!!

监狱风云

2008-04-14T01:09:00.000+08:00

我的近况

2008-04-12T22:03:00.008+08:00

首先，除了谢谢大家的关心之外还要说声对不起... 因为我的标题让大家都很紧张... 其实在这一段日子里我都过的比平常人还要好... 只不过疗程和医院的环境有一点儿难受... 但这已经是习惯成自然了... 昨天还回去医院抽骨髓（幸好一点也不痛但是会非常的累，因为我需要抽两份sample，一个给本地实验，另一个要送去新加坡 – 因为之前在KL寄去的骨髓有问题所以需要重抽）好像回到自己另一家那样... 因为有好多盟友都在那... :)

在家休息了几天，整个人的精神都越来越好了，开胃了很多.. 但是又好奇怪.. 我又瘦了... 哈哈.. 真是搞不清楚.. 很奇妙吧.... 给我多一点时间吧... 我不会让自己瘦弱下去的 :P

其实很多感激的话，大家都听厌了.. 但我心里真的很慚愧和感动... 因为我的信心能继续维持下去都是有你们的爱心... 我只能不客气的接受你们的爱... 谢谢你们不间断的支持和不放弃我... 放心我也不会输给大家的... 我会更坚强的 :)

也许很多人会有一些疑问... 关于我的病情来历, 疗程，骨髓移植等等的问题... 因为我的语言能力有限所以我还是用一些英文来交代。但是我要说的是，这一切都来的刚好... 因为它来的时候刚好是在我没有什么生活负担, 工作单位或是一些感情的问题存在...（所谓人又开始到中年，事业刚刚要转，也没有负债，最重要的我还是单身 – 不然，她必定会很辛苦...）但是让我最不安心的还是一个永远把我当成小孩的爸爸妈妈（没办法，我是家里的唯一男丁 ) 尤其是我妈，当我得了这个病后，我第一个想起的就是我妈，因为她是一个很不镇定的人。所以我也选择了回来家乡地方就医。也是为了不让她和家人担忧和辛苦.... 但愿妈妈可以慢慢习惯成自然吧....

生老病死, 是每一个人都必须要经历的过程.. 没有人可以预料你有多长命，有多健康及长寿.... 但我对这一切都以平常心看待... 你们的行动让我觉得在这29年零4月里的日子是没有白过的... 很感激你们... 所以我想老天爷应该会放我一马，让我在这段时间里锻炼身心... 大家要等我哦... ;)

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It was nothing special after I was discharged from hospital. I am having some side effects, such as tiredness, headache, weight loss and etc..... However, everything is still under my control… no worries. I really have no idea how to describe the feelings to my lovely friends, colleagues, aunty, uncle and family members.... The only thing I must do is, to RECOVER as soonest as possible. A big thanks to everyone, for your donations, gifts, concern and encouragement. I will “ACCEPT” these in this moment and I promise that I will not be disappointing all of you.

Hereby, I would like to share my history and my understanding of my sickness.

a) Sick Name: Acute Lymphoblastic Leukaemia ( ALL - B type) – fast growing blood cancer.

- How I get it?
· Good question, God’s gift.......hahahaha...In this moment, nobody can be CONFIRMED that on how I can get this type of sickness. According to my studies, there are a number of risk factors that might causes of ALL, these are : -
· Radiation
· Genetic conditions
· Exposure to chemicals
· Infection
No worries, none of them are my factor...

· I went through a body checked up in the mid of January 2008 and my health was in good condition before I have been diagnosis as a leukemia patient.

· My first symptom for this sickness was: I was looking pale and my neck was aching when I went back to Tawau for CNY’s celebration. I thought it was my pillow that caused the painful (started on the first day of CNY).

· I had visited a lot of doctors – about 6 times (Chinese or western) in my home town and Kuala Lumpur. However, they were only diagnosed that my body condition was “HOT” and everything was OK. I had consulted a Chinese doctor lastly and he had advised me to go for a blood test. After the test, I found out that the numbers of my white blood cells were super high and my red blood cells were very low. I was advised to admit to hospital immediately, in that moment, I was not aware the seriousness of my sickness. I was still ”lengah-lengah” and had watched two episodes of the Harry Potter before I admitted to Sunway Medical Center. (Time : 26 Feb 08)

· After 4 packs of blood transfusion and a bone marrow had taken for further diagnose, doctor had advised me to undergo the treatment ASAP due to my cancer is acute type and it will become worst in a short period.

- Treatment

· I had decided to have my chemotherapy treatment in Sabah due to my family members, especially my mother can be easily take care of me. This is no longer my personal issue but is a family issue. Moreover, the government hospital fees can be covered from my insurances.

ALL occurs more frequently in children (under 15 years of age) than adults. When it occurs in teenagers or adults, ALL is more common between the ages of 15–25 and in older people. It is slightly more common in males than in females.

Attached below is my disease : ALL (Type B)

Treament Schedule
* The normal treatment that I need to pass thru : -
Hereby is my treatment schedule. It is subjectable to change and it will depend on my body condition and the response to the chemotherapy treatment.

Please bear in mind, I might not be following the entire schedule which has been listed on what they called “HIGH RISK PROTOCOL for ALL), it will depends body weight, height, body condition and etc. So, let’s see how the exciting in my journey is.

Below is the famous LP needle that I need to do every time while I admit to hospital... and the bone marrow test as well.

For your reference. The CURE status.

That’s all I can share with you.... There are still a lot of information and treatments related to my sickness which I am still taking my time to study now. Please bear in mind that, my sharing / understanding on this sickness might not 100% correct.. so for any further information, please search online.. hahaha..

See you guys......Next week will be my 2/3 of induction chemo :P

Discharged from Hospital

2008-04-04T10:28:00.000+08:00

Horray... 我可以出院了!!!!!

彷徨的日子

2008-03-30T19:08:00.007+08:00

犹疑了很久...不知道还要不要让你们知道我更新的情况。因为我的生活已经没什么新意了，不是等吃，等睡，等被插，就是等下药...几天前还要一些呕吐呢..
现在的我，很怕看到部落格里的每一句话，每一个留言，因为你们的鼓励都会让我感动得流泪...不知何时何日，我已经可以很感性了... 不是性感噢!! 我还要做“信心强人”叻... :P

我不再发照片了，因为无情的发丝已经有开始脱落的现象... 希望它们可以“挺”多两周吧!!! 所以，两周过后，就有八卦新闻了... 到时贫僧会给大家分享一些人生哲学道理咯!! 哈哈!! 我在这里认识了两个同命的大哥，他们都很照顾我，所以大家也不需那么担心了。在这里什么情景都有，好的，坏的，走的安详的，回去的，回头的... 一一都有.... 不过，你们放心，我还好好的....

Hi my colleagues and friends,
I feel sorry to have made you all worried about me. I understand that some of you even look for a translator to read my blog. I really appreciate everyone's concern. I have learned a very useful tips in my previous company, which is, "Project can be failure, but it cannot be failed in my hand".. I will be applying this to my work and life as well.. Therefore, I will not fail in this mission.

Please bear in mind, if there is no news from me, it means that I have a good news!!! Thanks guys.. wish you all be happy and healthy... always.

沉闷的心情

2008-03-21T18:43:00.006+08:00

都已经差不多两个星期关在这笼子里，沉闷的心情慢慢和我说哈罗了。幸好沙巴这里有公共假日，所以有朋友刻意坐飞机来探我及送上很大的温情。真的不知该怎么谢谢和报答，尤其是一些完全不认识我的人。
其实，我更觉得很难受因为大家对我太好了，心里很惭愧，也很想哭。
但是，我对自己说过，我没那么差劲而且很有信心会和我的家人一起走过去.....
我只有跟大家说：我不会令大家失望的。
Chemo 方面，今天会开始十天的不停的放药....看看那些“朋友”会来找我吧!!??
看来艺术的样子是不适合我 :-P 加油加油!!

我瘦了！！

2008-03-17T21:50:00.003+08:00

不知不觉在这里躺了一个星期，房间一直没被换过，但也慢慢习惯了。
只是颈项的疼痛一直都不肯放过我，害我一直躺在床上。
我希望能通过这一关，Induction Chemo (Cycle 1)...

从没生病算起，我已经瘦了12kg.....

无论如何，谢谢你们，我还是有信心的：)

我被隔离了！！

2008-03-14T22:32:00.003+08:00

这就是政府医院的隔离方法！！！！！

人生的考验

2008-03-13T18:33:00.006+08:00

Thanks to my teacher, my boss, colleagues, buddies and friends. I have been getting a lot of support and encouragement from all of you. I felt touched and much appreciated that.

Moving a step forward toward the chemotherapy treatment; a step closer to the side effect. Waooo.. God love me and would like to let me have some, which is more and different with others, however it is not easy to accept this weird theory!! 神的考验未免太苛求吧！！！It's really a challenging journey in my life. Dont't worry, my motto in my life is - To be confident.

See you guys and take a good care of your health. Don't ever try to join my team.. hahaha.. (My "misal" smart boh?)

No Title

2008-03-12T22:24:00.005+08:00

I only admitted to 3rd class ward due to the fully booked. Besides that, I might be getting my 1st class ward by this week. Doctor will be starting to inject the brain prevention dose on me..

在这government hospital里，真的超闷。。。。What to do!!

First Chemotherapy Treatment

2008-03-12T09:34:00.004+08:00

I have completed my first chemotherapy treatment yesterday and will have the second treatment after 10 days. Now, i just have to see if there are any side affects during this period.

Before & After

2008-03-09T19:05:00.009+08:00

还以为剪短发会很难接受。Cheah...也不是那个衰样。没惊喜！！
嘿嘿嘿..... 还好还好

我的座右铭 - My Motto

2008-03-08T17:31:00.001+08:00

To be CONFIDENT....

Rest in Hospital

2008-03-06T22:48:00.006+08:00

I will be starting my first Chemotherapy treatment next Monday. This treatment will take 5 weeks to complete. To have a more privacy, I am requesting for an upgrade of my ward to first class which only cost me RM80 per day.

Besides undergoing the chemotherapy treatment, an additional treatment will be given to me, which is radiotherapy to the brain. The side effect for this treatment is that there is a possibility for me to lost part of my memories. Anyway... I hope that I still can remember the good & sweet memories with all of you. Please don't blame me if I can't recognise you in future :P

I will be going to barber this Sunday and will post my leng chai photo here...

加油! 加油!

A Thousand Thanks

2008-03-05T21:33:00.004+08:00

A Thousand Thanks,
To everyone - for your donations, gifts, concern and encouragement.
My current financial status is still manageable; anyway, thanks to my friends who had contributed in terms of money.

Thanks again, I feel blessed and am grateful to have my family and friends indeed who always support me in my life. I appreciated every single effort you put in for me.

Cheers,
Kachu Kachu

Boring Day

2008-03-05T14:52:00.005+08:00

Today is such a boring day for me. I spent the day sleeping at home.

Went to Sabah Medical Center yesterday; they do not have any hematology division! Dr Lily Wong is the only doctor who can cure me in Sabah.

I will stick with my previous plan and check in to hospital tomorrow to consult Dr Lily Wong.

No worries. I am in good condition now. Thanks.

2nd Day in KK @ 4 March 08

2008-03-04T14:19:00.000+08:00

I've gotten some information regarding this chemotherapy treatment and have decided to admit myself into the hospital next Monday. I will still consult Dr Lily Wong on this Thursday.
The chemotherapy treatment here differs with Sunway, and will take 1 year… Cham..

The First day in KK @ 3 March 08

2008-03-03T23:32:00.000+08:00

Making my way to Queen Elizabeth Hospital (QEH) to seek for Dr Lily Wong's advise. Unfortunately, Dr Lily Wong was not around and would only be back to KK this Thursday.
I consulted another doctor instead - Dr Jerome. He is Dr Lily Wong’s backup. He told me that the Chemotheraphy treatment would take 1 year. This contradicted with the doctor at Sunway who had told me that it would only be for 6 months. Dr Jerome did not seem too convincing to me as he was unable to answer most of the questions which I raised, such as, how many cycles would be needed for this Chemo, are there any backup plans (bone marrow transplantation), etc.

Dr Jerome advised me to list down all my questions and to check with Dr Lily again this Thursday. As my illness is acute, Dr Jerome has advised that I be admitted into the hospital this Wednesday in order to go through a body check out while waiting for Dr Lily Wong. Thus, I will be checking into the hospital on either this Wednesday or next Monday. I’m still too puzzled to be able to make a decision now.

While waiting for Dr Lily, I will be going to the Sabah Medical Center tomorrow to seek a second medical opinion. Hopefully this will help me decide about my treatment. I need to understand deeply how many cycle for this Chemotherapy and if there any other options which can cure my sickness. 1 year is such a long period for me.

I'm quite tired today and even lost my temper at the taxi driver. The distance from the hospital to my sister's house is quite nearby. However, the driver wanted to charge me Rm15. Soooo.. I'm reluctant to pay him and called my kompakar colleague to send me back.. thanks oooo... :)

Journey to Kota Kinabalu @ 2 March 08

2008-03-03T23:04:00.001+08:00

Thanks to my buddies who came to LCCT last Sunday. I promise, I will take care of myself.